An Old Story of my Farming Days-Ut mine Stromtid. From the German, by M. W. Macdowall

Chapter I

The day after Christmas was passed very busily in Mrs. Behrens' house in Rahnstadt. Louisa was con tinually to be seen running up and down stairs, for she was finishing the arrangement of her father's room. Whenever she thought it was quite ready, and looked really nice, she was sure to find something to improve, some alteration that must be made to ensure perfec tion. Dinner-time came, but her father had not ar rived, though she had prepared some little dainties especially for him. She laid a place for him, however, as perhaps he might come before they had finished dinner. — "I don't know why it is," she said to little Mrs. Behrens, "but I feel as if some misfortune were going to happen." — "What?" cried Mrs. Behrens, "you've only lived in town for three months, and you have presentiments already like a tea-drinking town lady!

What has become of my light-hearted country girl?" and as she said this, she stroked her foster child's cheek with a tender touch and loving smile. — "No," answeied Louisa, taking the kind hand, and Ut viine Siromtid. III. I holding it tight between her own, "such indefinite presentiments never trouble me. Unfortunately it is a very definite fear lest my father should weary of the inactivity of a town-life, after what he has been ac customed to in the country." — "Why, child, you talk as if Rahnstadt were a great city; no — thank God! — the geese go about bare-foot here just the same as at Pumpelhagen, and if your father likes to see farming operations going on around him, he has only to watch the two manure-carts belonging to our neighbour on the right, and the three belonging to our neighbour on the left.

If he wants to talk about farming he need only go to our landlord Mr. Kurz, who will be too happy to harangue him about grazing fields and town jails till he's as sick of these subjects as we are." — Louisa laughed, and when the dinner-things were cleared away, she said: "Now, mother, suppose you lie down and have a little nap, while I go down the GUr litz road, and see if I can't meet my father." She put on her cloak, and a warm hood, and set off down the road, which had always been her favourite walk since she came to Rahnstadt, for it was tlie one that led to the place where she had been so happy. When she had time she used to go to the hill from which she could see GUrlitz village, the church, the parsonage, and the church-yard, and when she had a little more time she used to run down to the parsonage to see Lina and Godfrey, and have a talk about the old days and the new.

She walked on and on; her father was not in sight; the east-wind blew in her face, and made her cheeks bright and rosy, so that her lovely face, framed in her dark cloth hood, looked for all the world like a sunny springday which gives the UT MINE STROMTID. 3 promise of hope and joy to man. But her eyes were full of tears. Was it because of the rude east-wind? Was it because she was looking so keenly down the road in search of her father? Was it because of her thoughts? It could not be the east-wind, for she was now standing still, and gazing out into the west with her eyes full of tears. It could not have been the keenness of her search for her father, for she was now looking straight over at the place where the sun was setting behind the black pines on the horizon like a red ball of fire.

It must have been her thoughts that made her weep. Such thoughts as come to the young making their joy and sorrow, which sometimes crown their brows with gladness unspeakable, and at others make them weep in agony, when they suddenly feel the thorns in what they had thought was only a garland of roses. Why was she gazing towards the west? She knew that he whom she loved was there, and her heart repeated the words of the poet : Haste westward, ever westward ho Thou boat at my behest! E'en dying, I should long to go Where all my hope doth rest I " She blushed, when she found what she was saying to herself, and how she was dreaming of happy days to come. She reached the place where her father had stood a couple of hours before, and had drunk his cup of sorrow to the very dregs. She stood still, and looked down upon Pumpelhagen and GUrlitz, and let the thought of all the love she had been blessed with over flow her heart.

Where the poor old father had stood and cursed those who had so cruelly injured him, the daughter now stood and prayed, weeping tears of love i* and gratitude, and her prayers and tears washed away the curse from the tablet on which all human events are noted down. The distance from Rahnstadt to GUrlitz is five miles, and as the winter-sun was setting, Louisa could linger no more, she had to go home at once. But she saw a man coming towards her from GUrlitz, perhaps it was her father. She waited a few minutes. No, it was not her father, so she walked on a short way, and then looked round again. This time she saw it was uncle Brasig, who was trying to overtake her. — "Bless me, Louisa! What are you doing here? Do you find it a pleasant amusement standing on the public road in a wind like this?

Aren't you coming down to the parsonage?" — "No, uncle Brasig, not to-day. I only came to meet my father." — "He passed long ago. Preserve us all! Where can he be?" — Brasig suddenly remembered Hawermann's strange manner, but when he saw how anxious Louisa looked, he said to comfort her: "We farmers have often to change our plans; we have to go here, there and everywhere. Perhaps he turned to the right here and went to Gulzow, and per haps he has got to Rahnstadt by this time and is see ing about some business. But I," he added, "am going with you, childie, I have something to do in Rahnstadt, where I am going to spend the night. You see I want to win the nine shillings back from that over-wise man, Kurz, the shopkeeper, which he got out of me at that confounded game Boston. This is club night."

When they had gone a Httle further they met a dog-cart coming towards them from Rahnstadt. It was Christian Degel with Dr. Strump. The doctor L'T MINE STROMTID. 5 ordered Christian to stop: "Have you heard the news?" he asked. "Mr. von Rambow has met with an accident with his fowling-piece; he has shot himself in the arm. But I hav'n't time to wait, the coachman is late enough as it is, for I was out when he came for me. Drive on." — "What is the meaning of this?" cried Louisa. "My father leave Pumpelhagen when the family are in distress! He could never have done that." — "But it may have happened after he left," said Brasig, though when he remembered how Hawermann had looked in the morning, he did not believe that it could have been the case. Louisa was more uneasy than before and walked on quickly.

She could not understand why her father was so late, nor could she understand how he could have left Pumpelhagen at all, after such an accident, and yet she felt that the two strange facts were somehow connected. Meanwhile Hawermann had arrived at Mrs. Behrens' house in Rahnstadt. He had left the high road and had gone round by a field-path, that he might have time to regain his composure before meeting his daughter. When he reached Mrs. Behrens' house he had regained his self-command, but the struggle had fatigued him so much that he looked ten years older than usual when Mrs. Behrens saw him. She was making the coffee when he entered the room, and was so startled by the change in his appearance that she allowed the coffee to boil over, and sprang to meet him, exclaiming: "Good God! Hawermann, what's the matter?

Are you ill?" — "No — Yes, I think so. Where's Louisa?" — "She went to meet you, didn't you see her? But sit down, do. How very tired you look!" — Hawer mann seated himself and looked round the room as if to make sure that he and Mrs. Behrens were alone. — "Hawermann, please tell me what is the matter," she said, taking his nerveless hands between her own. — "It is all over with me now. I must go through the world as a useless, dishonoured man."— "Oh, don't! Don't! Don't say that!" — "I had grown accustomed to the thought that my work was done, though it was hard to bear at first. But the misery of losing my honest name is more than I can endure; it crushes me." — "But who wants to deprive you of that?" asked Mrs. Behrens looking at him affectionately. — "The people who can do it most thoroughly, Mr. von Rambow and his wife," said the old man, and then he began to tell her all that had happened in a weak, broken voice; but when he got to the part when Mrs. von Rambow had also deserted him, had turned her back upon him, and had let him be ordered out of the room as a thief and a cheat, his anger broke out again; he sprang to his feet and began to pace the room with flashing eyes and clenched fists, as though he wanted to fight against the world.

"Oh," he cried, "that is not all. They have hit me harder than they knew. They have wrecked my child's life as well as mine. There, read that, Mrs. Behrens," and he gave her Frank's letter. — She read it, the paper trembling in her hands from nervous excitement, and while she read it, he stood before her, his eyes fixed on her face the better to read her thoughts. "Hawermann," she said, taking his hand, when she had finished, "don't you see the finger of God in this. One cousin has sinned against you, and the other makes it right." — "No, Mrs. Behrens," he replied sternly, "I should be the scoundrel the world will call me from henceforth, if I were to let a good and trustful man take a wife with a stained name into his house. Poor and honest, let me be that; but dis honourable, never." — "Oh me!" cried Mrs. Behrens, "why isn't my pastor here?

If my pastor were only here, he could have told us what to do." — "Indeed he could," said Hawermann sadly. "I cannot do it," he exclaimed, "Louisa must decide for herself, and you must help her. You have been able to teach her to distinguish right from wrong as I never had the chance of teaching her. If she thinks it right and honourable to enter into this engagement in spite of what has happened, and you agree with her, I will give my consent. I will not influence her in any way, and will not even see her until she has decided. Here is Frank's letter to her. Give it to her after you have told her what has happened. It was all exactly as I told you. I'm going to my room now; I'll have nothing to do with her decision." He left the room, but came back again to say: "If you think it is for her happiness, never mind me!

Forget what I said about it's being impossible. I will do what I can to hide my dishonoured name." He left the room once more, and as he went upstairs, he said to himself: "I can't do otherwise, I can't do otherwise." When he threw him self upon the sofa in his little room, and saw how his daughter had arranged everything for his pleasure and comfort, he covered his eyes with his hand and murmured: "And I must do without all this perhaps." Then with a deep sigh: "And why not? Why not? If it is for her happiness," he exclaimed aloud, "I'll never see her again." The door-bell rang, he heard Brasig's voice, and then his daughter's; then all was still; he listened intently for any sound. Mrs. Behrens was telling about it, and Louisa was suffering the pain of hearing the story. At last footsteps were to be heard coming slowly and heavily upstairs.

Brasig came in, he looked as calm and solemn as if he had seen the dead rise from their graves and come to meet him; his eyebrows, which were usually raised as high as his hair when he heard of anything extraordinary, now hung low down over his eyes. He seated himself be side his friend on the sofa, and merely said: "I know it, Charles. I know all." They sat for a long time silent in the half-darkness. At last Brasig took Hawermann's hand in his, and said: "Charles, we have known each other for fifty years. You remember at old Knirkstadt's? What a happy life we had when we were young, always con tented with our lot and merry hearted. And except for a few silly tricks I played with you, we have no thing to reproach ourselves with. Charles, it is a pleasant thing in one's old age, when one's conscience only reproaches one with follies, and not with wicked ness."

Hawermann shivered and drew away his hand. "Charles," said Brasig, "a good conscience is a great blessing in one's old age, and it's a remarkable thing, a very remarkable thing, that these good consciences always cling to each other in their old age, and that nothing can divide them from each other. Charles, my dear old boy!" and he fell upon his friend's neck and wept bitterly. — "Brasig," entreated Hawermann, "don't make me more miserable than. I am, my heart's heavy enough as it is." — "And why, Charles? What makes it heavy? Your heart is as pure as Job's, and should be as light as a lark which soars up to heaven, for the story about the confounded .... No, I don't mean that; I was going to say .... Pshaw! what was it we were talking about? Oh, to be sure, it was about the conscience. The conscience is a very strange thing, Charles.

For instance, take Kurz's, for he has one as well as you or I, and I believe that it will enable him to appear in the presence of God at the Last Day, and that it will justify him, but still it doesn't justify him in my eyes, for he peeps at the cards, when he's playing at Boston; he has what may be called a penny conscience, for in great things he's most scrup'lous; for example; with Mrs. Behrens' house rent, but if he can take a hair's breadth off a yard, or give just the least atom short weight, he's not ashamed to do it, that's to say when he can manage it, which isn't al ways. I wanted to say, Charles, that you'll have to see a good deal of him, while you're here. You'll find the pleasure of his acquaintance quite as so, so, as his conscience, for he will try to discuss farming matters with you, and that's as unpleasant as driving in a cart without springs.

I'm afraid you'll find it a little dull, so I think that as soon as I've got the young parson's spring sowing done, and everything is in order, I'll come here to you, and then we'll be able to cheer each other up. I can go out to GUrlitz again when the harvest begins, that that poor boy, the parson, mayn't get into any difficulty. Indeed I'm sure there's no danger of that, for, George, is a thoughtful sort of fellow, and takes a good deal of the management upon himself — thank God for that — and also that Lina backs him up when it's necessary. When the first year is over you'll see that Godfrey will pitch all his Method istical trash overboard, but we must give him time to learn that there are certain worldly matters which are better suited to man than hymn-books are. And then I'll come to you, Charles, and we'll enjoy life as much as if we were in Paris, and you'll see that the last quarter of our life-time will be the best part of the whole ox." — Here he threw his arm round his friend's shoulder and went on talking to him, mixing up the past and the future, and making them into a regular medley just as a mother does, when she tries to change the current of her child's thoughts.

The moon shone in at the window, and what can better soothe a wounded spirit than the soft light of the moon, and the love of an old friend who clings to us through good and evil report. I have always thought that the clear bright sunshine is most suited to lovers, while the calm moonlight is best for friend ship. While they were sitting together the door opened, and a slender figure came softly into the room and remained standing in the full light of the moon. The girl's arms were crossed upon her breast, and her pale face looked like that of a white marble statue against the dark wall: What can have happened to thee, thou poor child? Brasig went out of the room silently, and Hawer mann covered his eyes with his hand as if they pained him, pained him to the heart. The girl threw herself down by his side, clasped him in her arms, and laid her pale face against his.

Not a word was said by either of them for a long, long time, but at last the old man heard a low whisper at his ear: "I know what you think it right to do; I am your child — am I not? your dear child?" Hawermann put his arm round his dear child and drew her closer to him. "Father, father!" she cried, "we can never part! My foster father, who is now with God, told me how you wanted to keep me with you when you were in such sorrow, although that good woman, the labourer's wife, offered to take charge of me. Now that you are again in sor row do you really wish to part from me? Do you think that I could let you go?" and pressing him in her arms, she said: "Your name is my name, your honour is my honour, your life is my life." They talked a long time together in the sweet moonlight, but what they said no one else has a right to know, for when a father and child speak to each other heart to heart and soul to soul, God is with them, and what they say is between themselves, the world has no part in it.

Down stairs in the parlour it was very different. Mrs. Behrens was sitting in her arm-chair weeping bitterly. The dear good woman was torn in two by conflicting opinions, and her heart was sore for Hawer mann and his sorrows; but when she foresaw the ter rible struggle she was obliged to cause in the heart of her adopted daughter, and when she saw it awake, and saw faith and courage get the victory in spite of misery, she felt as if she herself had brought all these misfortunes on the head of her darling — remorse and compassion filled her heart, and she burst into bitter tears as soon as she was left alone. — Brasig on the other hand had left all his compassion upstairs, he had expended all that he had upon Hawermann, and now his wrath, which he had before restrained with infinite difficulty, burst forth, and as he entered the dark room, he exclaimed: "The infamous Jesuitical packages!

What do they mean by blotting the fair fame of such a man as Charles Hawermann? It's a Satanic deed ! It's just Hke one man holding the cat, while the other impales it! Curse the " — "Brasig, Brasig, please don't!" cried little Mrs. Behrens. "Don't let us have any of your unchristian ways here." — "Do you call that unchristian? It sounds to me like a song of the holy angels in paradise, when I say that sort of thing about the infernal plots of these Jesuits." — "But, Brasig, we are not their judges." — "I know quite well, Mrs. Behrens, that I am not a judge, and that you hav'n't a seat on the municipal board; but still you can't expect me to look at vermin with the same plea sure as at beautiful canary-birds! No, Mrs. Behrens, toads are toads, and Pomuchelskopp is the chief toad that has squirted its venom over us.

What do you say to the trick he has been trying to play me lately? You see, he has put up a fence across the foot-path that leads to the glebe, and which has been in existence for a thousand years for anything I know, and has sent me a message that if ever I cross that fence he'll have my boots pulled off and let me hop away home through the snow in my stockings like a crow. Do you call that a Christian sentiment? But I'll go to law with him. The fellow daring to even me to a crow! And parson Godfrey must go to law with him also, for try ing to deprivate him of the use of the foot-path. And young Joseph must go to law with him, for he has said, several times, and publicly too, that young Joseph was an old fool, and young Joseph is not obliged to take that quietly. You must also go to law with him for not having built you a dowager-house, as he was obliged to do by law, at least one or two old people have told me so.

Then Charles Hawermann must go to law with Mr. von Rambow. We must all get up a revolution against those Jesuits, and if everyone will agree with me, we might all drive to Gustrow to-morrow to see the Chancellor, and summons the whole lot of them on a bit of parchment. We can engage five barristers, that'll be one for each of us, and then, 'Hurrah for the law suit!'" If Brasig had had any idea that Louisa had to suffer more than anyone else from "the Jesuits," he would have insisted on engaging a barrister to plead her cause also, but he had not the remotest notion of her misery. — Mrs. Behrens tried to calm him down, but she found it a very difficult task, for the misfortunes of his old friend had caused him much mingled anger and sorrow, and all the small rages proper for a farmer, and the irritability brought on by gout and losing at cards combined to augment his rage. — "I came here," he said, "to amuse myself because it was club-day, and because I wanted to win back the nine shillings from that old sharper Kurz, that he fleeced me of with his confounded trickery, and now the devil is holding his d — d telespope before my eyes that I may the better see some utterly vile human actions !

And that's to be my amusement! Now, Mrs. Behrens, if you don't mind I'd like to spend the night here, for I shouldn't make much of that stupid game, Boston, this evening, and it might be as well for me to sleep in Charles' room so as to be able to cheer him up whenever he gets low." — Mrs. Behrens replied that she would be much obliged to him if he would do so, and she spent the rest of the evening trying to calm down the ir rascible old man. Neither Hawermann nor Louisa came back to the parlour, and when Brasig went upstairs he found that Louisa had gone to her own room. When Brasig took leave of his old friend on tlie next morning, he said: "You may leave it all in my hands, Charles, I'll drive over to Pumpelhagen, and get your things. You shall have all your belongings though it makes me ill to cross the threshold of the house where you were so badly treated."

On the same morning Hawermann sat down to write to Frank; he told him honestly and clearly what had happened at Pumpelhagen, even to the terrible ending of his stay there, and the accusation which had been made against him, and said that he and his daughter were of one mind in declining the offer Frank had made. He wanted to tell the young man of his warm friendship for him, but somehow the words would not come as easily as usual, and when written seemed rather forced. He ended by entreating Frank to leave him and his daughter to go their way alone, to forget them, and allow them to live out the rest of their lives by themselves. Louisa also wrote, and when she had sent Mrs. Behrens' maid out in the evening to post her letter, she went to the window, and watched the servant as if she were taking a last long leave of what was very dear to her, and then looking at the setting sun, she murmured: "E'en dying, I should long to go Where all my hope doth rest !"

She did not blush to-day when she said these words, as she had done only yesterday; her face was pale, and when the last rays of the setting sun were hidden behind the houses, she sighed heavily, and slow tears gathered in her eyes and rolled down her white cheeks. She did not weep for her own sorrow, but for his. As soon as Brasig reached the parsonage, Lina ran out to meet him, exclaiming: "Oh, uncle Brasig, I'm so glad that you've come. Such dreadful things have happened here, I don't mean here, but at Pumpel hagen. Dr. Strump has been here — George was taken ill suddenly last night — so I had the doctor's gig stopped in the village as he was coming back from Pumpelhagen, and he told us such a frightful story — I don't mean the doctor, for one could hardly get a word out of him on the subject— but his coachman said that — oh do come in, there's such a draught here," and she drew the old bailiff into the parlour.

When there, she told him that the people said her dear uncle Hawermann had shot Alick, and had then gone away no one knew where, but most probably to take his own life. Brasig comforted her by assuring her that Hawermann was alive, and after having convinced her of that, he asked how Mr. von Rambow was getting on. Lina told him that Dr. Strump did not think him dangerously wounded, and then Brasig went to see George who was apparently suffering from congestion of the lungs. After that it was time for him to go to Pumpelhagen for Hawermann's things as it was about twelve o'clock, so he set out in search of a man who could act as coachman instead of George. He asked several of the villagers to go with him, and help him to bring away the things, but they all refused on one pretext or another, and he soon found that he would have to go alone.

But at the last mo ment old Ruhrdanz, the weaver, came forward, and said: "I don't care what he says; if he chooses to make a scene he can do so, it's nothing to me, I'll go with you, Mr. Brasig." — "What do you mean by making a scene, Ruhrdanz?" asked Brasig. — "You see, sir, he has forbidden us to do any kind of work for the parsonage people, we ar'n't even allowed to go a single step in their service." — "Who forbade you to do so?" — "Why he did. Our master Pomuchelskopp." — "The infamous Jesuit!" muttered Brasig below his breath. — "He told us that if we disobeyed him we might feed our cattle on saw-dust, for he would give us neither hay nor straw, and we might burn stones to warm our selves, for he would give us neither wood nor peats." — Brasig grew more and more furious every moment, and the old weaver, having got into the full swing of talk, went on: "And then you see we've to be ready night and day when he wants us.

I myself have been from home all the Christmas holydays, and only got back at ten o'clock last night." — "Where were you?" — "At the old station in Ludwigslust." — "What were you doing there?" — "I wasn't doing any thing there." — "Why you must have been sent on business?" — "Yes, I was sent on business, but nothing came of it, as there were no papers." — "What do you mean?" — "You see, I was sent to the station with a ram, and I got there all right. I found a fellow waiting for me, so I said to him: ' Good-morning,' I said, 'here he is.' — 'Who?' he asked. — 'The ram,' I said. — 'What has he come for?' he asked. — 'I don't know,' I said. — 'Are there any papers?" he asked. — 'No,' I said, 'there are no papers about him.' — 'You fool,' he said, 'are you sure that there are no papers?" — 'Yes,' I said, 'the ram has no papers.' — 'Confound you!' he said. 'Hav'n't you brought me some papers yourself?' — 'What?' I said. 'I?