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F. Marion Crawford · 1884 · Scanned text

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Author
F. Marion Crawford
Language
English
Published
1884
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106,686 words · about 7 h 28 min
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21 reader sections
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Contents (21)
  1. Front matter about 1 min
  2. Chapter I about 12 min
  3. Chapter II about 29 min
  4. Chapter IV about 18 min
  5. Chapter V about 17 min
  6. Chapter VI about 18 min
  7. Chapter VII about 37 min
  8. Chapter IX about 19 min
  9. Chapter X about 18 min
  10. Chapter XI about 18 min
  11. Chapter XII about 19 min
  12. Chapter XIII about 19 min
  13. Chapter XIV about 20 min
  14. Chapter XV about 40 min
  15. Chapter XVII about 17 min
  16. Chapter XVIII about 19 min
  17. Chapter XIX about 21 min
  18. Chapter XX about 21 min
  19. Chapter XXI about 20 min
  20. Chapter XXII about 21 min
  21. Chapter XXIII about 45 min

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Front matter

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Chapter I

There are two ■ Romes. There is the Rome of • the intelligent foreigner, consisting of excavations, monuments, tramways, hotels, typhoid fever, incense, and wax candles ; and there is the Rome within, a city of antique customs, good and bad, a town full of aristocratic prejudices, of intrigues, of religion, of old-fashioned honor and new-fashioned scandal, of happiness and unhappiness, of just people and unjust. Besides all this, there is a very modern court and a government of the future, which may almost be said to make up together a third city.

Moreover, these several coexistent cities, and their corresponding inhabitants, are subdivided to an infinity of gradations, in order to contain all and make room for all. The fbreigner who hunts excavations does not cross the path of the foreigner who sniffs after incense, any more than the primeval aristocrat sits down to dinner with the representative of fashionable scandal; anymore than the just man would ever allow the unjust to be presented to him. They all enjoy so thoroughly the freedom to ignore each other that they would not for worlds endanger the safety of the barrier that separates them. Of course, as they all say, this state of things cannot last. There must ultimately be an amalgamation, a deluge, a unity, fraternity, and equality ; a state of things in which we shall say, " Sois mon frere, ou je te tue," — a future glorious, disgusting, or dull, according as you look at it. But, meanwhile, it is all very charming, and there is plenty for every one to enjoy, and an abundance for every one to abuse.

When Marcantonio Carantoni saw his sister married to a Frenchman years ago, he was exceedingly glad that she had not married an Englishman, a Turk, a Jew, or an infidel. .The Yicomte de Charleroi was, and is, a gentleman ; rather easy-going, perhaps, and inclined to look upon republics in general, and the French republic in particular, with the lenient eye of the man who owns land and desires peace first — and a monarchy afterwards, whenever convenient. But in these days it is not altogether worthy of blame that a man should look after his worldly interests and goods ; for how else can the aristocracy expect to make any headway against the stream of grimy bourgeois, who sell everything at a profit, while the nobles buy everything at a loss ? So Marcantonio is satisfied with his brotherin-law, and just now is particularly delighted because Charleroi has got himself appointed to a post in Eome ; and he goes to see his sister every day, for he is very fond of her.

In truth, it is not surprising that Marcantonio should like his sister, for she is a very charming woman. She is beautiful, too, in a grand way, with her auburn hair, and gray eyes, and fair skin ; but no one can help feeling that she might be quite as beautiful, and yet be anything but charming ; so many beautiful people are vain, or shy, or utterly idiotic. Madame de Charleroi is something of a paragon, and has as many enemies as most paragons have, but they can find nothing to feed their envy. She was very unhappy years ago, but time has closed the wounds, or has hidden them from sight, and her dearest friends can only say that she was cold and showed very little heart. When the world says that a woman is a piece of ice, you may generally be sure that she is both beautiful and good, so that they can find nothing worse to say. Marcantonio Carantoni's sister is a paragon, and there are only two things to be said against her, — she did not marry Charleroi for love, and she has not done half the things in the world that she might have done.

On the January afternoon which marks the opening of this story, the brother and sister sat together in a small boudoir in the Carantoni palace ; there was room for all in the great house, and as Marcantonio was not married, it was natural that his sister and her husband, with their children, gov^ emesses, servants, and horses should occupy the untenanted part of the ancestral mansion. Up in the second story there is a room such as you would not expect to find within those gray and ancient walls, where the lower windows are heavily grated, and huge stone coats of arms glare down forbiddingly from above. It is a room all sun and flowers and modern furniture, though not of the more hideous type of newness, — modern in the sense of comfortable, well padded and airy. At the time I speak of, the afternoon sun was pouring in through the closed windows, and there was a small wood fire in the narrow fireplace. The Vicomtesse de Charleroi sat warming her toes, and her brother was rolling a cigarette as he looked at her. A short silence had succeeded a somewhat animated discussion. She looked at the fire, and he looked at her.

" My dear Diana," said Marcantonio at last, rising to get himself a match, " what in the world can you have against her ? We are not Hindoos, you know, to talk about caste in these days ; and even if that were the objection, she comes of very proper people, I am sure, though they are foreigners." Madame moved her feet impatiently. " Oh, you know it is not that ! " she said petulantly. " As if I had not married a foreigner myself ! But then, if you had felt about it as I feel about this, I would have thought twice " —

" Have I not thought twice — and three times?"

" Of course, yes — all in a day, while your head

is hot with this fancy. Yes, you have probably thought a hundred times, at least, this very day. Listen to me, my dear boy, and do what I tell you. Go away to Paris, or London, or Vienna, for a fortnight, and then come back and tell me what you think about it. Will you not do that — to please me ? "

" But why ? " objected Marcantonio, looking very uncomfortable, for he hated to refuse his sister anything.' " Seriously, why should I not marry her ? Is there anything against her? If there is, tell me."

Donna Diana rose rather wearily and went to the window,

" I wish you would abandon the whole idea," she said. " I am quite sure you will repent when it is too late. I do not believe in these young girls who occupy themselves with philosophy and the good of the human race. Politics — weU, we all have a finger in politics ; but this dreadful progressive thought — it is turning the world upside down."

" Oh — it is the philosophy that you do not like about her ? Ehhene, my dear sister, that is exactly what I think so interesting. This young English Hypatia " —

" Hypatia, indeed ! " cried Donna Diana rather scornfully.

" Yes. Is she not learned ? "

" Perhaps."

"And beautiful?"

"Jifo, — certainly not. She is simply a little pretty."

Marcantonio shrugged his shoulders.

" Of course," he said, " you will not allow it." His sister looked round quickly.

" That is rude," she said. In a moment her brother was by her side.

" Forgive me, Diana mia ; you know I did not mean it. But you see I think she is beautiful, and that is everything, after all."

" Yes," answered she, " I suppose it is everything, now. But philosophy is not everything. Put her out of your head, dear boy, and do not say any more rude things."

Marcantonio had the power to avoid being rude, but he was not able to f oUow the other piece of advice. He could not put " her " out of his head. On the contrary, he went out and shut him self up in his own rooms and thought of " her " for a whole hour.

He was not at all like his sister in appearance, though he resembled her somewhat in character. He was of middle height, sparely built, dark of skin, and aquiline of feature ; neither handsome nor ugly, but very decidedly refined, — gentle of speech and kind of face. Without any more vanity than most people, he was yet always a little more carefully dressed than other men, and consequently passed for a dandy. Altogether he was a pleasant person to look at, but not especially remarkable at first sight.

As regards his position, he bore an ancient name, dignified with the title of marquis ; he was an only son, and Ms parents were dead ; he owned the fine old palace in Rome and a good deal of land elsewhere ; he never gambled, and was generally considered to be rich, as fortunes go in modern Italy. Of course, he was a good match, and many were the hints he received, from time to time, to the effect that he would be very acceptable as a son-in-law. Nevertheless he was not married, and he did not particularly care for the society of women. In truth, women did not find him very amenable, for he would not marry, and could not play adoration weU. enough to please them. So they left him alone. Grave old gentlemen nodded approvingly when they ^poke of him, and his uncle the cardinal regarded him as one of the mainstays of the clerical party. As a matter of fact, he did not aspire to anything of the kind, and was merely a very honest young nobleman of good education, who had not made for himself any interest in life, but who nevertheless found life very agreeable. Possessing many good qualities, he yet knew very well that he had never been put to the test, nor required to show much strength of character ; and he did not wish to be put into any such position. His sister was very fond of him, but she sometimes caught herself wishing he would do something a little out of the everlasting common round of social respectability. He was twenty-nine years old, and she was a year younger.

Of late, however, it had become apparent that Marcantonio, Marchese Carantoni, had not only found an interest in life, but liad also discovered in HmseK the strength of will necessary to its prosecution. The dull regularity of his existence was shaken to its foundations, and out of the vast social sea a figure had risen which was destined to destroy the old order of things with him, and to create a new one. There was no doubt about it ; not so much because he himself said so, as because his whole manner and being proclaimed the fact, that he was seriously in love. Worse than that, he was in love with a lady of whom his sister did not approve, and he evidently meant to marry, whether she liked it or not.

He was seriously in love ; and, indeed, love.ought always to be a serious thing, or else it should be called by another name. There is a great deal of very poor nonsense talked and written about love by persons only vicariously acquainted with it ; and it is a great pity, because there is absolutely no subject so permanently interesting to humanity as love, whether in life or in fiction. And there is no subject which deserves more tenderness and delicacy, or which requires more strength in the handling.

The relation of brother and sister is unlike any other. It represents the only possible absolutely permanent and platonic affection between young men and young ^omen. Its foundation is in identity of blood instead of in the spontaneous sympathy of the heart, and even when brother and sister quarrel they understand each other. Lovers frequently do not understand each other when they are on the best of terms, and the small difference of opinion grows by that misunderstanding until it makes an impassable gulf. Brothers and sisters may be estranged, separated, divided by family quarrels or by the bloody exigencies of civil war, but if once they are thrown together again the mysterious attraction of consanguinity shows itself, and their life begins again where it had been broken off by untoward fate. And yet they will allow small things to make trouble between them !

Madame de Charleroi was inclined to be angry with Marcantonio, and when he was gone she sat by the fire, wondering what he would be like when he should be married. Somehow she had never thought of him as married, certainly not as married to a pernicious young English girl, with all sorts of queer ideas in her brain, and a tendency to sympathize with the dynamite party. He might surely have chosen better than that. Donna Diana was not a woman of narrow prejudices, but she really could not be expected to be pleased at seeing her brother, a Catholic gentleman, bent on uniting himself to a foreign girl with no fortune, no beauty — well, not much — and a taste for explosives. He might surely have chosen better.

Donna Diana thought of her father, and fancied what he would have said to such a match, the strict old nobleman. And so, between iier thoughts and her memories the afternoon wore on, and she bethought herself that it was time to go out, '

The horses spun along the streets through the crisp golden air, and now and then a ray of the lowering sun caught ^them as they dashed through some open place on the way, making them look like burnished metal. And the light touched Madame de Charleroi's beautiful face and aiiburn hair, so that the people stood still to look at her as she passed, — for every Roman knew Donna Diana Carantoni by sight, just as every Roman knows every other Roman, man, woman and child, distiaguishing lovingly between the Romans of Rome and the Romans of the north. By and by the carriage rolled through the iron gates of the Pincio, and along the drive to the open terrace where the band plays, till it stood still behind the row of stone posts, within hearing of the music. The place has been absolutely described to death, and everybody knows exactly how it looks. There are flowers, and a band-stand, and babies, and a view of St. Peter's.

The first person Donna Diana saw was her brother, standing disconsolately by one of the short pillars and looking at each carriage as it drove up. He was evidently waiting for some one who did not come. His black moustache drooped sadly, and his face was so melancholy that his sister smiled as she watched him.

Marcantonio was soon aware of her presence, but he had no intention of showing it, and studiously kept his head turned towards the drive, watching the line of carriages. Madame de Charleroi was soon surrounded by a crowd of men, all dressed precisely alike, and aU anxious to say something that might attract the attention of the famous beauty. Presently they bored her, and her carriage moved on ; whereupon they pulled their hats ofE and began to chatter scandal amongst themselves, after the manner of their kind. They nodded to Marcantonio as they passed him in a body, and he was left alone. The sun was setting, and there was a purple light over the flats behind the Vatican, recently flooded by a rise in the Tiber. There was no longer any probability of her coming, and the young man sauntered slowly down the steps and the steep drive to the Piazza del Popolo, and entered the Corso.

To tell the truth, he was disappointed, bored, annoyed, and angry, all at once. He had fully expected to see her, and to find consolation in some sweet words for the hard things his sister had said to him. Perhaps also he had enjoyed the prospect of exhibiting himself to his sister in the society of the lady in question, — for Marcantonio was obstinate, and had just discovered the fact, so that he was anxious to show it. Men who are new in fighting are sure to press every advantage, not having yet learned their strength ; but in the course of time they become more generous. Marcantonio was therefore grievously chagrined at being cheated of his small demonstration of independence, besides being a little wounded in his pride, and honestly disappointed at not meeting the young lady he meant to marry. In this state of mind he strolled down the Corso, looked up at her windows, passed and repassed before the house, and ultimately inquired of the confidential porter, who knew him, whether she were at home. The porter said he had not seen the signorina, but that one of the servants had told him she was indisposed. The marchese bit his black moustache and went away in a sad mood.

Chapter II

Miss Leonora Caenetht was suffering from an acute attack of philosophical despair, which accounted for her not appearing with her mother on the Pincio.

The immediate cause of the fit was the young lady's inability to comprehend Hegel's statement that " Nothing is the same as Being ; " and as it was not only necessary to understand it, but also, in Miss Carnethy's view, to reconcile it with some dozens of other philosophical propositions all diametrically opposed to it and to each other, the eonsequence of the attempt was the most chaotic and hopeless failure on record in the annals of thought. Under these circumstances. Miss Carnethy shut herself up in a dark room, went to bed, and agreed with Hegel that Nothing was precisely the same as Being. She thus scattered all the other philosophies to the angry airts of heaven at one fell sweep, and she felt sure she was going to be a Hindoo.

This sounds a little vague, but nothing could be vaguer than Miss Carnethy's state of mind. Having agreed with Mr. Herbert Spencer that the grand mainspring of life is the pursuit of happiness, and that no other motive has any real influence in human affairs, it was a little hard to find 2 that there was nothing in anything, after all. But then, since her own being was also nothing, why should she trouble herself? Evidently it was impossible for nothing to trouble itself, and so the only possible peace must lie in realizing her own nothingness, which could be best accomplished by going to bed in a dark room. It was very dreary, of course, but she felt it was good logic, and must tell in the long run.

It had happened before. There had been days when she had reached the same point by a different road, and had been satisfactorily roused by a flash of intelligence shedding enough light in her darkened course to give her a new direction. To-day, however, it was quite different. She had certainly now reached the absolute end of aU speculation, for she was convinced of the general nothingness of all created strength and life.

" For," said she, " I am quite sure that if I saw a train coming down upon me now, I would not get out of the way, — unless, the train being nothing, and I also nothing, two nothings should make something. But Hegel does not say that, and of course he knew, or he would not have understood that Nothing is the same as Being."

This kind of argument is irreproachable. It is like the old lady who said she was so glad she did not like beans, because if she did she would eat them, and, as she detested them, that would be very unpleasant. There is no answer possible to a properly grounded philosophical argument of this kind.

On the wbole, Miss Carnetliy did the right thing when she tried to realize the physical being of nothing.

Miss Leonora was no ordinary girl. She belonged to a small class of young women who take a certain delight in being different from " the rest " — higher, of course. She had the misfortune to be of a mixed race, as far as blood was concerned, for her father was English and her mother was a Russian. It would probably be hard to find two people more utterly unlike than these two, for the beefeating conqueror is one, and the fire-eating Tartar is quite another, while this unlucky child of an international parentage had something of each. Her history — she was twenty-two years of age, then — might be summed up in a very few words. An English child, an Italian girl, a Russian woman. Her father had many prejudices, and did not believe in much ; her mother had no prejudices at all, and believed in everything under the sun, and in a few things besides, so that certain evilly disposed persons had even said of her that she was superstitious.

There Is something infinitely pathetic about such a growing to maturity as had made Leonora Carnethy what she was. Imagine such an anomaly as a poor little seed, of which no one can say whether it is a rose or a nightshade, alternately treated as a fair blossom and as a poisonous weed. Imagine a young girl, full of a certain fierce courage and impatience of restraint, chafing under the moral flatiron of a hopelessly proper father, whose mind is of the great levelling type and his prejudices as mountains of stone in the midst, reared to heaven like pyramids to impose a personal moral geography on the human landscape ; and imagine the same girl further possessed of certain truly British instincts of continuity and unreasonable perseverance, eternally offending by her persistence a mother whose strong point is a kind of gymnastic superstition, a strange perversity of exuberant belief, forcing itself into the place of principle where there is more, — imagine a young girl in such a situation, in such a childhood, and it will not seem strange that she should grow up to be a very odd woman.

The father and mother understood each other after a fashion, but neither of them ever understood Leonora, and so Leonora tried to understand herself. To this laudable end she devoured books and ideas of all sorts and kinds, not always perceiving whether she took the poison first and the antidote afterwards, or the contrary, or even whether she fed entirely on poisons or entirely on antidotes. Poor child ! she found truth very hard to define, and the criticism exercised by pure reason a very insufficient weapon. Moreover, like Job of old, she had friends and comforters to help in making life hideous. She wondered to-day, as she lay in her darkened room, whether any of them would come, and the thought was unpleasant.

She had just made up her mind to ring the bell and tell her maid that no one should be admitted, when the door opened after the least possible apology for a knock, and she realized that she had thought of the contingency too late.

" Dear Leonora ! "

" Dearest Leonora ! "

The room was so dark that the young ladies stood still at the door, as they fired oif the first shots of their brimming affection. Leonora moved so as to see their dark figures against the light.

" Oh," she said, " is it you? "

She was not glad to see her dear friends Mademoiselle Le Creux and Mademoiselle Le Vide, for her fits of philosophical despair were real while they lasted, and she hated to be disturbed in them. But as these two young women were her companions in the study of universal hoUowness, she felt that she must bear with them. So, after a little hesitation she allowed them to make a little light in the room, and they sat down and held her hands.

"We want to talk to you about Infinite Time," began Mademoiselle Le Vide.

" And Tn finite Space," added Mademoiselle Le Creux.

" I am persuaded," said the former, " that our ideas of Time are quite mistaken. This system of hours and minutes is not adapted to the larger view."

" No," said Leonora, " for Time is evidently a portion of universal pure Being, and is therefore Nothing. 1 am sure of it."

" No," answered Mademoiselle Le Vide, " Time is not Nothing, — it is Color."

" How do you mean, dear ? " asked Leonora in some surprise.

" I do not quite know, dearest, but I am sure it must be. It is quite certain that Color is a fundamental conception."

" Of course," remarked Mademoiselle Le Creuz sagely. There was a pause. Apparently the identity of Infinite Time with Color did not interest Miss Carnethy, who stared at the light through the blinds between her two friends.

" It seems to me that we girls have no field nowadays," said she, rather irrelevantly.

" An infinite field, dear," said Mademoiselle Le Creux.

"And infinite time, dearest," said Mademoiselle Le Vide.

" I would give anything I possess to be able to do anything for anybody," began Leonora. " We know so much about life in theory, and we know nothing about it in practice. I wish mamma would even let me order the dinner sometimes ; it would be something. But of course it is all an illusion, and nothing, and very infinite."

Poor Miss Carnethy turned on her pillow with a dreary look in her eyes.

" It will be different when you are married, dear," suggested one.

" Of course," acquiesced the other.

" But can you not see," objected Miss Carnethy,

" that we shall never marry men whose ideas are so high and beautiful as ours ? And then, to be tied forever to some miserable creature ! Fancynot being understood ! What do these wretched society men care about the really great questions of life ? "

" About Time " — began Mademoiselle Le Vide.

" And Infinite Space " — suggested Mademoiselle Le Creux, scornfully.

" Nothing, nothing, nothing ! " cried Miss Carnethy in real distress.

" And yet it would be dreadful to be an old maid " —

" Perfectly dreadful, of course ! " exclaimed aU three, in a breath. Then there was a short silence, during which Leonora moved uneasily, and finally sat up, her heavy red hair falling all about her.

" By the bye," she said at last, " have you been out to-day, dears ? What have you been doing ? TeU me all about it."

" We have been to Lady Smyth-Tompkins's tea," said Mademoiselle Le Vide. " It was very empty."

"You mean very hollow," corrected Mademoiselle Le Creux, " for there were many people there."

" Yes," said the other, " it was very hollow — empty — everything of that sort. Then we went to drive on the PiriL'io."

" So very void," said Mademoiselle Le Creux sadly.

" Yes," assented Mademoiselle Le Vide. " We saw Carantoni leaning against a post. I am sure lie was thinking of nothing. He looks just like a stuffed glove, — such an inane dandy ! "

Miss Carnethy's blue eyes suddenly looked as though they were conscious of something more than m.ere emptiness in the world. Her strong, wellshaped red lips set themselves like a bent bow, and the shaft was not long in flying.

" He is very pleasant to talk to," said she, " and besides — he really dances beautifully." It was probably a standing grievance with her two friends that Marcantonio did not dance with them, or Leonora could scarcely have produced such an impression in so few words.

" What does he talk about ? " asked Mademoiselle Le Vide with an affectation of indifference.

" Oh, all sorts of things," answered Leonora. " He does not believe at all in the greatest good of the greatest number. He says he has discovered the Spencerian fallacy, as he calls it."

" Alas, then that also is nothing ! " groaned Mademoiselle Le Creux.

" Absolutely nothing, dear," continued Leonora. " He says that, if there is no morality beyond happiness " —

" Of course," murmured Mademoiselle Le Vide in great dejection.

— " then every individual has as much right to be happy as the whole human race put together, since he is under no moral obligation to anybody or anything, there being no abstract morality. Do you see ? It Is very pretty. And then lie says it follows that there is no absolute good unless from a divine standard, which of course is pure nonsense, or ought to be, if Hegel is right."

" Dear me ! " ejaculated Mademoiselle Le Creux, " of course it is ! "

" And so, dears," concluded Leonora triumphantly, " we are all going to the big, big D do you

see ? " The association of her friends with the initial letter in question seemed exhilarating to Miss Carnethy, and in truth the conclusion was probably suggested more by her feelings than by her logic, if she really possessed any. She felt better, and would put off the further consideration of Nothing and Being to some more convenient season. She therefore gave her friends some tea in her bedroom, and the conversation became more and more earthly, and the subjects more and more minute, until they seemed to be thoroughly within the grasp of the three young ladies.

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