Derelicts

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DERELICTS DERELICTS BY WILLIAM J. LOCKE AUTHOR OF "AT THE GATE OF SAMARIA " AND "THE DEMAGOGUE AND LADY PHAYRE " JOHN LANE: THE BODLEY HEAD LONDON AND NEW YORK Copyright, 1897, By John Lane. A U rights reserved. ©nij-ttsitg $wss: John Wilson and Son, Cambridge, U.S.A. CONTENTS Part I Chapter Page I. Beyond the Pale i II. Yvonne 20 III. In the Depths 32 IV. Dea ex Machina 54 V. The Comic Muse 74 VI. Melpomene 92 VII. A Forlorn Hope 109 VIII. The Canon's Angel 122 IX. Past, Present, and Future 141 X. Counsels of Perfection 160 XI. The Outcast Cousin 173 XII. Histoire de Revenant 191 XIII. Dis Aliter Visum Contents Part II Chapter Page XIV. "In a Strange Land" 235 XV. Knight-Errant 255 XVI. La Cigale 269 XVII. Yvonne Proposes 293 XVIII. Driftwood 310 XIX. Ferment 330 XX. Upheaval 345 XXI. A Demand in Marriage 359 XXII. Seeking Salvation 376 XXIII. An End and a Beginninc i 1 DERELICTS Part I

Chapter I Beyond The Pale

" Warm day," said the policeman. The man thus addressed looked up from the steps, where he was sitting bareheaded, and nodded. Then, rather quickly, he put on his hat. " Not much Bank Holiday hereabouts." " So much the better," said the man. " It 's all very well for them as likes it," said the policeman, wiping his forehead. It was the first Monday in August, and his beat was not a lively one. Curiosity had at tracted him toward the sitting figure, and the social instinct prompted conversation. Receiv ing, however, an uninterested nod in reply to his last remark, he turned away reluctantly and continued his slow tramp up the street. Derelicts The man, took no notice of his departure, but, resting his chin on his hands, gazed wist fully across the road. Why he had come here to Holland Park he scarcely knew.

Per haps, in his aimless walk from his lodgings in Pimlico, he had unconsciously followed a once familiar track that had brought him to a spot filled with sweet and bitter associations. The blinds were drawn in the great house opposite that stared white in the noonday sun. A beer-can hanging on the area railings an nounced the caretaker. Like most of the mansions in the long, well-kept street, it seemed abandoned to sun and silence. It was the first time he had seen the house since the cloud had fallen upon his life. Once its interior had been as familiar to him as his own boyhood's home. Its inmates gave him flattering welcome. He was courted for his brilliant promise and admired for his good looks. A whisper of feasting and riotous liv ing that hovered around his reputation caused him to be petted bythe household as the prod igal cousin.

The comforts of wealth, the charm of refinement, the warmth of affection, were his whenever he chose to knock for ad mittance at that door. Now he had lost them all, as irrevocably as Adam lost Eden. He was an outcast among men. Not only had he for feited his right to mount the steps, but he knew that the very mention of his existence in that household brought shame and fierce injunctions of silence. He gazed at the drawn blinds of the deserted house in an agony of hopelessness, craving the warm sympathy, the laughter, the dear human companionship, the mere sound of his Christian name which he had not heard uttered for over two years — ever since he had entered by that gate above which the laseiate ogni speranza seemed written in letters of flame. The lines deepened on his face. The touch of a friendly hand, a kind glance from familiar eyes, the daily, unnoted possession of millions, were to him a priceless treasure, forever beyond his reach.

He was barely thirty. His life was wrecked. Nothing lay before him but pariahdom, and slinking from the gaze of honest men. And within him there burnt no fiery sense of injustice to keep alive the flame of noble impulse — only self-contempt, ignominy, the ineffaceable brand of the gaol. It was on the pavement opposite that he had been arrested. He had tripped down the Derelicts steps in evening dress, his ears buzzing with the laughter within, in spite of tremulous throb bings of his heart, and had walked into the arms of the two quiet officers in plain clothes who had been patiently awaiting his exit. From that moment onward his life had been one pain and horror. Regained freedom had brought him little joy — had brought him in fact in creased despair. During the last few months of his imprisonment he had yearned sicken ingly for the day of release.

It had come. Sometimes he regretted the benumbed hours of that mid-time in gaol, when pain had been lost in apathy. He had been free for five months. In all probability he would be free for the rest of his life. Sometimes he shud dered at the prospect. The policeman again passed by, and this time eyed him askance. Why was he sitting on those steps ? A suspicion of felonious purpose relieved the monotony of his beat. " You '11 be moving on soon," he said. " You must n't doss on them doorsteps all day." The man looked at him rather stupidly. His first impulse was one of servile obedience — an instinct of late habit, and he rose from his seat. Then his sense of independence asserted itself, and he said, In a somewhat defiant tone : — " I felt faint from the heat. You have no right to molest me."

The policeman glanced at him from head to foot. A gentleman evidently, in spite of well worn clothes and gloveless hands thrust into trousers pockets. He wore no watch-chain, and his shirt-cuffs were destitute of links. " Down upon his luck," thought the policeman ; " ill too." The man's face was pinched, and of the transparent white of a thin, fair man with delicately cut features. His eyes were heavy, deeply sunken, and wore an expression of weariness mingled with fear. The side muscles by his mouth were relaxed, as if a heavy droop ing moustache had dragged them down ; the scanty blonde hair on his upper lip, curled up at the ends, contrasted oddly with this impression. He looked careworn and ill. His clothes hung loosely upon him. The policeman sur rendered his point. "Well, you ain't obstructing the traffic," he replied good-humouredly ; and again he left the man alone, who reseated himself on the shady steps, as if disinclined to stir from com- Derelicts fortable quarters.

But the spell of his medita tions had been broken. He leaned his head against the stone pillar of the balustrade and tried to think of occupation for the day. He longed for to-morrow, when he could resume his weary search for work, interrupted since Saturday noon. At first he had plunged into the hopeless task with feverish anxiety, humiliated by rebuffs, agonised through the frustration of idle hopes. Now it had grown mechanical, a daily routine, devoid of pain or joy, to drag himself through the busy streets from office to office and from shop to shop. He resented the Sunday cessation of work, as in terfering with the tenor of his hfe. This Bank Holiday added another Sunday to the week. The heat and glare and soundless solitude of the street made him drowsy. The thought of death passed through him : an euthanasia — to fade there peacefully out of existence.

And then to be picked up dead on a doorstep — a fitting end. Finis coronat opus. He sniffed cynically at the idea. The minutes passed. The shade gradually encroached upon the sunlight of the pavement. A cat from one of the great deserted houses drew near with meditative step, smelt his boots, and, in the bored manner of her tribe, curled herself up to slumber. A butcher's cart rattling past awoke the man, and he bent down and stroked the creature at his feet. Then he became aware of a figure approaching him, along the pavement — a tiny woman, neatly dressed. He watched her idly, with lack-lustre gaze. But when she came within distance of saluta tion, their eyes met, and each started in recognition. He rose hurried! v and made a step as if to cross the road, but the httle lady stopped still.

" Stephen Chisely ! " She moved forward and laid a detaining touch upon his arm, and looked up questioningly into his face : — " Won't you speak to me ? " The voice was so soft and musical, the intonation so winning, that he checked his impulse of flight; but he stared at her half bewildered. " You have n't forgotten me — Yvonne Latour ? " she continued. " Forgotten you ? No," he replied, slowly. " But I am not accustomed to being recog nised." " The world is very full of hateful people," Derelicts she said. " Oh ! how wretchedly ill you are looking! That was why you were sitting down on the doorstep. My poor fellow!" There was a suggestion of tears in her eyes. He turned his head away quickly. " You must n't talk to me like that," he said, huskily. " I 'm not fit for you to speak to. When I went under, I went under — for good and all.

Good-bye, Madame Latour — and God bless you for saying a kind word to me." " Why need you go away ? Walk a little with me, won't you ? We can go along to the Park and sit quietly and talk." " Do you reallv mean it — that you would walk with me — in the public streets ? " "Why, of course," she replied, with a little air of surprise. " Did we not have many walks together in the old davs ? Do you think I have forgotten ? And you want friends so, so badly that even poor little me may be of some good. Come." They moved away together, and walked some steps in silence. He was too dazed with the sudden realisation of his yearning for human tenderness to find adequate speech. At last he said harshly : — " You know what you are doing ? You are in the company of a man who committed a disgraceful crime and has rotted in a gaol for two years."

" Ah, don't say such things," said Madame Latour. " You hurt me. There are hun dreds of people in this great London, hon oured and respected, who have done far worse than you. Hundreds of thousands," she added, with exaggerated conviction. " Be sides, you are still my good, kind friend. What has passed cannot alter that." " I can't understand it yet," he said lamely. " You are the first who has said a kind word to me " " Poor fellow ! " said Yvonne again. They emerged into the Bayswater Road. Before he had time to remonstrate, she had hailed an omnibus going eastward. "We will get out at the corner of the Park. You must n't walk too much. The 'bus stopped. He entered with her and sat down by her side. When the con ductor came for the fares, Yvonne opened her purse quickly ; but a flush came over her companion's pale face as he divined her intention.

" You must let me, ' he said, producing a couple of pence from his pocket. Derelicts The rattling of the vehicle prevented serious conversation. The talk drifted naturally into the desultory commonplace. Madame Latour explained that she had been giving the last singing lesson of the season at a house on the other side of Holland Park, that her pupil had neither ear nor voice, and that by the time she had learned the accompaniment to a song it had already grown out of date. " People are so stupid, you know." She said it with such an air of conviction, as if she had discovered a brand-new truth, that the man smiled. She noted it with her quick, feminine glance, and felt gladdened. It was so much better to laugh than to cry. She was encouraged to chatter lightly upon passing glimpses of people in the street, of amusing incidents in her profession as a concert singer.

When the 'bus stopped, she jumped out, dis regarding his gravely offered hand, and laughed, her face glowing with animation. " Oh, how nice it is to be with you again ! " she said, as they crossed to the entrance gate of Kensington Gardens. " Say that you are glad vou met me ! 4 " It is like a drop of water on the tongue of the damned," he said in a low voice — too low, however, for her to hear, for she continued to look up at him, all smiles and sweetness. She seemed a thing of warmth and sunshine, too impalpable for the rough uses of the world. One would have said she was the embodied spirit of the warm south of Keats's ode. Her dark hair, massed in a hundred little waves over her forehead and temples, gave an indescribable softness to her face. A faint tinge of rose shone through her dark skin.

Her great brown eyes contained immeasurable depths of tender ness. A subtly-mingled, all-pervading sense of summer and the exquisitely feminine enveloped her from the beautiful hair to her tiny feet. She was in the sweetest bloom of her woman hood and she had all the unconscious, half pathetic charm of a child. In a crowded ball-room, amidst dazzling dresses and flashing arms and necks and under the electric light, Yvonne's beauty might have passed unnoticed. But there, in the shady walk upon which they had just entered, in that quiet world of cool greens and shadowed yellows, she appeared to the man's weary eyes the most beautiful thing on the earth. " How sweet it is here," she said, as they sat down upon a bench. Derelicts " Incomprehensibly sweet," he replied. His tone touched her. She laid her tiny gloved hand upon his arm.

" I wish I could help you — Mr. Chisely," she said gently. " That is no longer my name," he said. " And so you must n't call me by it. I have given it up since — since I came out. Would you care to hear about me? It would help me to speak a little." " That 's why I brought you here," said Yvonne. He bent forward, elbows on knees, covering his face in his hands. " I don't know, after all, that there 's much to say. My poor mother died while I was in prison — you know that ; I suppose I broke her heart. Her money was sunk in an an nuity. The furniture and things were sold to pay outstanding debts of mine. I came out five months ago, penniless. Everard's bankers communicated with me. As the head of the family he had collected a lump sum of money, which was given to me on condition that I should change my name and never let any of the family hear of my existence again.

My mother's people refused to have anything to do with me. God knows why I was sitting outside their house to-day. Perhaps you think I ought n't to have accepted Everard's gift. A man has n't much pride left after two years' hard labour I took the name of Joyce. I saw it on a tradesman's cart as I reached the street after the interview. One name is as good as another." " But you are still Stephen ? " said Yvonne. " I suppose so. I have hardly thought of it. Yes, I suppose I keep the Stephen. I am husbanding this money. I have only that between me and starvation, if anything happened, you know. What I have passed through is not the best thing for one's health. Meanwhile, I am trying to get work. It is a bit hopeless. I know I ought to go out of England, but London is in my blood somehow. I am loth to leave it.

Besides, what should I do in the colonies ? I am not fit for hard manual labour. They tried it in there, and I broke down ; I made sacks and helped in the kitchen most of my time. If I could earn a pound a week in London, I should n't care. It would keep body and soul together. Why I should want to keep them together I don't know. I suppose my spirit is broken, and I Derelicts am too apathetic to commit suicide. If I had the spirit of a louse I should do so. But I have n't." He stopped speaking and remained with his head bowed in his hands. Yvonne could find no words to reply. His almost brutal terse ness had given her a momentary perception of his self-abasement which surprised and frightened her. Generous and tender-hearted as she was, she had ever found men insoluble enigmas. They knew so much, had so many strange wants, seemed to exist in a world of ideas, feei. ings, and actions beyond her ken.

Here was one with nameless experiences and shames. She shrank a few inches along the seat, not from repulsion, but from a sudden sense of her own incapacity of comprehension. She felt tongue tied and helpless. So there was a short silence. Joyce noticed the lack of spontaneous sym pathy, and, raising a haggard face, said : — " I have shocked you." " You talk so strangely," said Yvonne — " as if you had a stone instead of a heart." " Forgive me," he said, softening at the sight of her distress. " I am ungrateful to you. I ought to be happy to-day. I will be happy. I should like to bend down and kiss your feet for sitting here with me." The change in his tone brought the colour back into Yvonne's face and the sun into her eyes. She was a creature of quick impulses. " Have I really made you happy ?

I am so glad. I seem to be always trying to make people happy and never succeeding." " They must be strange people you have dealt with," said Joyce with a weary smile. She shrugged her shoulders expressively. " I suppose it is that other people are so strange and I am so ordinary." " You are the kindest, sunniest soul on earth," said Joyce. " You always were." " Oh, how can you say so ? " she cried, shaking her head. She was all brightness again. " I am such an insignificant little person. Everything about me seems so small. I have a small body, a small voice, a small sphere, a small mind, and oh ! I live in such a small, tiny flat. You must come and see me. I will sing to you — that is my one small talent — and perhaps that will cheer you. You must be so lonely ! " " Why are you so good to me ?

" Joyce asked. Derelicts " Because you look wretched and ill and miserable," she said impulsively, " and I can't bear it. You were good to me once. Do you remember how kindly you settled everything for me after Amedee left me ? I don't know what I should have done without you. And then, your mother. Ah, I know," she continued, lowering her voice a little, " I know, and I cried for you. I saw her just before the end came and she spoke of you. She said ' Yvonne, if ever you meet Stephen, give him a kind word for my sake. He will have the whole world against him.' And I promised — but I should have done just the same if I had n't promised. There is n't any goodness in it." He pressed her hand dumbly. Her eyes swam with starting tears, but his were dry. Sometimes when he thought of the devastation his crime had wrought, he would fall on his knees and bury his face, and long that he could ease his heart in a storm of weeping.

But it seemed too dead for passionate outburst. Yet he had never felt so near to emotion as at that moment. They talked for a short while longer, of old days and home memories, bitter-sweet to the young man, and of his present position, whose ■6 hopelessness Yvonne refused to allow. She was anxious to effect a reconciliation between him and his family. His mother's relations who lived in Holland Park she did not know. But his cousin, Everard Chisely, Canon of Winchester, might be brought to more Christian sentiments of forgiveness. She would plead with the Canon the first time that she met him. But Joyce shook his head. No. He was the black sheep. Everard had behaved generously. He must go his own way. No modern Chris tianity could make a man forget the disgrace that had been brought upon his name by felony.

Besides, Everard never went back upon his word. Like Pilate, what he had written, he had written, and there was an end of the matter. " But how do you come to know Everard ? " asked Joyce, wishing to turn the conversation. " I met him several times at your mother's," replied Yvonne. " He used to be so kind to her. And there he heard me sing — and some how we have become immense friends. He comes to see me, and I sing to him. Dina Vicary says he comes up to town on purpose. Did you ever hear such a thing ? But I can't tell you how respectable it makes me feel — so 2 Derelicts impressive you know — a real live dignitary. Once he came when Elsie Carnegie and Van deleur were there showing me her new song and dance. You should have seen their faces when he came in. Van, who sings in the choir of a West End church, began to talk hymns for all he was worth, while Elsie flicked her lighted cigarette into a flower-pot.

It was so funny." Yvonne broke into a contagious ripple of laughter. Then, remembering the flight of time, she looked at her watch and rose quickly from the seat. " I had no idea it was so late ! I am going out to lunch. Now you will come and see me, won't you ? Come to-morrow evening. I live at 40 Aberdare Mansions, Marylebone Road. By the way, do you still sing ? " " I had forgotten there was such a thing as song in the world," said Joyce sadly. " Well, you '11 remember it to-morrow even ing," said Yvonne. "I have an idea. Au revoir, then." " God bless you," said Joyce, shaking hands with her. She nodded brightly, and tripped away up the path. Joyce watched her dainty figure until it was out of sight, and then he wandered aimlessly through the Park, thinking of the past hour. And, for a short while, some of the contamination of the gaol seemed to be wiped away.

Chapter II Yvonne

That evening Yvonne was standing by the door of a concert-hall, as her friend and fellow artist Vandeleur adjusted a red wrap round her shoulders. He was a burly, pudding-faced Irishman with twinkling dark blue eyes and a persuasive manner. His fingers lingered about the wrap longer than was necessary. " Good-bye," said Yvonne, "and thank you." She was feeling a little upset. Vandeleur, a popular favourite, had preceded her on the programme, and his song had been met with rapturous applause. " You have ' queered ' me, Van," she had said, in pure jest. Whereupon, he had returned to the platform to give his enthusiastically demanded encore, and, to the disappointment of the audience, had sung the most villainous drawing-room ballad he could think of, without an attempt Yvonne at expression. The applause had been per functory, and Yvonne's appearance had created a quickening of interest.

Vandeleur's unnec essary quixotism put Yvonne into a false position. So she thanked him shyly. " Let me just have ten minutes of a cigarette at home with you," he pleaded. Yvonne was tired. It was very hot ; she had been running hither and thither about London since the morning, and was longing in a feminine way to free herself of hampering garments, and to lie down with a French novel for an hour before going to bed. But when a man spoke to her with that note of entreaty in his voice she did not know how to refuse. She nodded assent. Vandeleur called a cab and they drove together to her flat. It was up many flights of stairs — the pas sage was very narrow, the drawing-room very tiny. The big Irishman standing on the hearthrug seemed to fill all the space left by the grand piano. How this article of furniture was ever brought into the flat puzzled Yvonne's friends as much as the entrance of the apples into the dumplings puzzled George III., until some one suggested the same solution of the problem — the flat had been built round Derelicts the piano.

Everything else in the room was small, like Yvonne herself, the armchairs, the couch, the three occasional tables. A few water-colours hung around the walls. The curtains and draperies were fresh and tasteful. All the room, with its dainty furniture and pretty feminine knick-knacks, was impressed with Yvonne's graceful individuality — all ex cept the immense grand piano, which asserted itself loudly, a polished rosewood solecism. It seemed such a very big instrument for so small a person as Yvonne. She threw herself into an armchair by the fire, with a little sigh. She had been unusually quiet during the drive home. " And what 's making you miserable ? " asked Vandeleur, in a tone of concern. " I wish you had n't done that, Van," she said, with a wistful puckering of her forehead. " Ah, there ! now you 're vexed with me.

There never was an animal like me for tread ing on my dearest friends. I 'm like the elephant you may have heard of, that squashed the mother of a brood of chickens by mistake, and, taking it to heart, just like me, gathered the little ones under his wing, and, sitting down upon them, said : c Ah, be aisy now, Yvonne I '11 be a mother to you ' ; he did n't hurt the chickens' feelings exactly — but it was mistaken kindness. Was it your feelings I trampled on ? " "Ah, no, Van," said Yvonne, smiling. " But don't you see, it was doing a thing I can never pay you back for." " Faith, the sight of your sweet face is payment enough." " But you can have that for nothing — such as it is." " It 's the sweetest face that ever was made," said the Irishman, flinging a freshly-lighted cigarette into the grate behind him.

" I 'd cut off my head any day to get a sight of it. But are you wanting to pay me more than that ? By my soul, there 's just an easy way out of your difficulty, Yvonne ! " He looked down at her, his face very red, and questioning in his eyes. She caught his glance and sat upright, stretching out her hand appealingly. Men had looked at her like that before, — craving for something she had not in her to give. She had always, on such occasions, felt what a shallow, poverty-stricken little soul she was. What was in her that could bring the trouble into men's eyes ? Here was Van, the kind friend and good Derelicts comrade, going the way of the others. She was frightened and distressed. " Oh, Van, don't ! " she cried. " Not that. I can't bear it ! " She covered her face with her hands, as he came quickly forward and leaned over her chair.

" Just a tiny bit of love, Yvonne. So small that you would n't miss it. I could do with it all, but I know I can't get that. I only ask for a sample. Come, Yvonne." But Yvonne shook her head. " Don't, Van," she repeated, piteously ; " you 're hurting me." Her tone was so pathetic that the big man drew himself up, thumped his chest, and seized his hat. " I 'm a great big brute to come and take advantage of you like this. Of course you could n't care about a great fat bounder like me. And you 're half dropping with weariness. It 's a villain I am. I '11 leave you to your sleep, poor little woman. Good night." He held out his hand, and she allowed hers to remain in it for a moment. " I have n't been ungrateful to you, have I? " she asked. " I did n't mean to be. But I thought you were different."

Yvonne " How, different ? " That you would never make love to me. Don't, Van, please. It would spoil it all." " Well, perhaps it would," replied Vandeleur, philosophically. " Only it is so devilish hard not to make love to you when one 's got the chance. And, begad ! if you 'd just give up looking like a little warm, brown saint, it would be better for the peace of mind of the men." He stooped and touched her hand with his lips and strode buoyantly out of the room. She heard him humming one of his songs along the passage, then the slam of the front door ; then there was silence, and Yvonne went to bed with a grateful sense of escape from unknown dangers. Still, she was sorry for Vandeleur, although she had a dim per ception of the superficiality of his passion. It would have been nice, had it been possible, to make him happy.